sorry im whining

i promised myself i wouldnt whine here..but. promises are meant to be broken.
..they really are.


work makes me happy. it takes my mind off a lot of things.

i think im addicted to food. that makes me happy too.


some days..i just never want to get out of bed..sometimes i feel like..i could just lay in bed for a really long time and be totally fine...i could day dream how much easier life would be if i were korean...about how pretty my room could be if i actually cleaned it.....eh. i really just dont care to do much. i feel very sluggish. the weekdays are getting longer and the weekends are too short.

i want summer. beach. sun. warmmmth. fun. laughter. ......ahhh. i feel useless right now. and only godiva chocolate can save me.

the world is cruel

but actually. i really like work. the little kids i have are so darn cute!. ugh. too cute. i really like it when my favorite ones are at my desk :) "dance with me!" ahh they bright up my day. maybe that's why i love playing with little kids so much..cause they're so innocent. oh and i absolutely love kids who say thank you and you're welcome. . i lovoeeee it. o and i like gentlemen too. or really nice people. wow this stuff is totally random. but yeah. gah im just trying to procastinate. i dont want to study.

mm sometimes i wish id get hit by a car so id be out for a couple of months and then i wouldnt have to do anyyyyyyyyything.

oh and relationships ..ugh. sometimes they irk me. especially when one person gives more than the other. and the other person doesnt give crap in return. or doesn't even appreciate the things they do. but yeah. whatever. waheteverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr