off on a tangent

ever have one of those summers when you just dont do aNYTHING at all?
and right after the last day of school, you're like hell yeah ! YEAH i can watch tv, play video games and eat whatever i want!

whoa! amber said we can check ucirvine status online!!!..let's see if i got into uc irvine. im kinda sorta nervous. my heart's beating kinda sorta really fast... my stomachs turning inside out ish.. it feels weird.. brb
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lol.
oh.
um.
i didn't even apply to irvine. hahahah
i just looked at my receipt..i got worked up for nothing.

okay ANYWAYS..
[6th grade flashbacckckkkkk]
i used to get excited for the summer.. the thought of doing absolutely nothing was really appealing to me..but after doing the same thing everyday....watching price is right...playing neopets..watching maury...eating pho..playing neopets...watching jenny jones..it got pretty boring...even if i played barbie with joshua.
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[2nd grade]
i moved to san francisco in the 2nd grade..a completely different school...a PUBLIC school. argonne was totally different from chinese christian bible school. CCBS was a cool jesus school. everybody was nice and PLAYED TREEHOUSE WITH ME. but argonne...argonnnneeee... thats when i realized that i was fat and not everyone was nice. one day i went into the play structure and saw two girls alone..i asked them "can i play tea party with you guys?" they both said "no". (but back at christian bible school, EVERYOne would play with each other..) i didnt know what to do ...so i asked them what grade they were in. they said kindergarten..i told them i was in the 2nd grade and i could beat them up. so i pulled on their hair until they cried. hahah.
[middle school]
yeah i didnt have that many friends in middle school either, you are not alone dayu! i was pretty fatty fat fat back then. but back then i didtn care about how i looked..i really..didn't care. id wear a big white tshirt (that i probably stole from my dads closet) over a cheap hand me down sweater..i always wore black sweat pants or black spandex like pants. i didnt start wearing jeans til ..8th grade.

i had friends..but not the kind that ud hang out with after school or have sleepovers with...i just followed a buncha kids from my elementary school so i wouldnt look like a loner. very pretty kids. but yeah mm i think the first friend that was THAT close to me was maggie (7th grade)..good times.. we made videos...stalked people we didnt like..maggie was the first mean funny person i ever knew and i loooved it. i guess im a nice girl but i swear maggie brought out the crazy in me. hahah. the gibroni club..and chipmunk club? something like that. that was pretty fun. vivian was also one of my first close friends. i probably shouldve treated her better though.. maggie didnt like her taht much for some reason.. so i guess i didnt give her as mch respect as she deserved. so sorry vivian.


mm but now summer is fun and i miss it.

wow thats a lot of shit writing.
i should go more into my fatty fat next post.
but yeah if you cant say something nice, then dont say anything at all
i may laugh things off. but i do sekkritly hate many of you jerks on the inside.
and if hate you THAT much, dont worry ill just straight up tell you.
phil yee is OKAY now i guess.
but i do hate chris do.




yeah its definitely the monthly.


just for you dayu! hahah. ur definitely on my cool kids list