freakeh

So I took a 30 minute nap this afternoon and when I was about to wake up..I couldn't.. I couldn't talk or move..as hard as I tried..i just couldn't! I know half of my eye was open because I could see part of the plant in my living room..the freaky thing was that i swear i heard children laughing and saying "come play with us..listen to us listen to us." and they just kept chanting that, of course i was uber freaked out because i had no idea wtf was happening. i couldnt move/talk AND i was hearing voices? i even tried screaming help but all that came out were murmurs. i remember maggie and stina told me that this happend to them before and they told me it had something to do with the devil posessing you, testing you to see if you're true to god or whatever..and you're supposed to say.."in the name of christ..leave this body"? actually it was a long time ago so i dont remember what you're supposed to do. mm the weird thing is that im not religious anymore sooo that can't be the case..can it? another funky thing is that from what i remember in ap psych...it takes like..what.. a couple of hours before you fall into REM sleep..and that's when you dream..but I only took a 30 minute nap. so i couldnt have possibly been in REM...which means i didn't dream. . so wHAS DHA DEEEAL GURLFRWENd?!

mm so far what i know/think is that there are two worlds. the REAL world which actually exists and the world in your mind. ummm like in dreams thats not the real world..but sometimes (at least to me) my dreams feel so real and when i wake up..i have to think really hard whether it actually happened or not. your mind controls your senses..so if it's fucked up, can't some special neurotransmitter be triggered to make you see some craaaazy things? like how riddilin made cartman see christina auguleria mole rats or wahteverr. but what if your mind was fucked up ALL the time and you saw things all the time..like instead of the floor, you saw a sea of rats and every person looked like a talking dog ..mm i wonder if anyone's like that ..would there be a way to cure that kinda illness ..hmmmmmmmm ill research that stuff lata after finals..

i hope i never go that crazy..