suicidal ppl

hey. you know it must really hurt to die...
i mean i was cooking chicken broth and rice the other day and my hand was over the stove and my hand started to get uncomfortably warm..but i continued cooking anyways..until i kinda burned my hand.and WOW it hurt like a mofo. i wonder what it feels like to ACTUALLY burn your hand like..have it catch on fire. if it already hurt that mch and my hand wasnt even tOUCHING teh fire, the pain must be like unbearable or something.

and i wonder if ppl actually feel the pain when they get shot in the heart..im sure they do..but do they feel it for THAt long? maaaybe it hurts so much, that it feels like an eternity to them. hmmmm!

o and u know what i really admire?
how some ppl's lives are so fucked up, and yet they manage to keep it all in at school. cause when you pass ppl in the halls, you don't realize that one kid's dad is in the hospital or another kid's family is fcuked up..they just pass you like nothing has happened.

unlike some kids
who cry because
they got their first
B or C.. some kids
who just can't hold
it in because their
college will probably
never accept them
just because they got
a unweighted 3.83- one A
short of a 4.0.

i guess i'd sympathize for the kids who are near failing and are trying their hardest..but fail anyways. ..mm actually i think thats impossible. you can't fail if you put ur mind to it and try.

stupid people can be normal if they just apply themselves.


but anywaaaaaaays. im blabbering. lalalalala.