meaningless to you, meaningful to me

this is just the beginning
:)
yeaaah.







remember kids,
you're a lot stronger than you think you are.

i have nothign to write about anymore

SUGAPLUMFAIREE12: how could she find out its u
AtomicTea: well
AtomicTea: if she goes to gmail and ask for their records
AtomicTea: they'll give her my IP address
AtomicTea: and you can look up what ip address is what internet companyu
AtomicTea: and if she oges to sbc yahoo
AtomicTea: she can find out who's subscribing to that IP
AtomicTea: and she'll find my momma
AtomicTea: and.. yea.
AtomicTea: but i'm always REALLY paranoid so i don't think so
AtomicTea: but she COULD...
SUGAPLUMFAIREE12: ...
SUGAPLUMFAIREE12: LOLLLLL

oh gosh. silly steven.


i dont have mch to write about anymore......ladeedadadah.

oh.

oh nothing to worry about guys, just the monthly.

yes. the MONTHLY, steven.
aaaaaahahaaaaahah.

wow poe is an amazing author. i still dont TOTALLY understand wtF hes talking about
but i like how he can make me feel creeped out in a couple of sentences.

valentines day is coming up..and this year we're actually doing something..:o..i think




running does make me happy.
and so doees godiva chocolate.


i wanna swimmm ok...

tissues for issues

remember guys, pain is only temporary.

unless its emotional. . that'll last a wee bit longer.
weeeeeeeee. weee. weee. wee. wee.

god i feel so depressed.


and i dropped my favorite rubber band in the toilet. so i had to flush it down.. kekeke. oh wait im supposed to be depressed. cause this is a EMO entry. aaaaaaaaahaaaaahahahaaaaaaaaaa. just kidding. i have no idea but yeah, losing my rubber band to a toilet is definitely emo. i have no idea wtF im writing but its taking my mind off of things.

i think i need to run tonight. i like running because theres a certain point where you hope that a car will run you over or that you'll trip and crack your head open on the cement...and you're just sooo concentrated on thinking of ways to not have to EVER run again that you dont think about ANYTHING else..the other great thing about running is that when you feel pain, it's not emotional..it's PHYSICAL. and when your body aches and hurts, all you think about is your body, nothing else. it cant get to me while im running. and that's why i like to run. i sound quite psychotic but that's quite alright since no one bothers to read this.
oh and i might sound _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ because its almoooost that time again.
that's probably why.



okay
im going back
into my home

i love disney.

If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that

Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of

No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh

It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh

You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no

Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love

This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love

You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love

You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it

Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love

Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love

¿faake?

so everybody hates a fake right? but if you think about it...almost everybody is fake in some way or another. i mean, if you weren't fake, then you'd be a rude bitch. like if a person you hated said hi to you, and you just totally ignored them, flicked them off or whatever, then that'd be rude. itd be mch more nicer just to say hi. so i guess there's a line btwn being nice. and ew fake. but yeah
sometimes i cant tell whether people actually like me or not and that kinda makes me feel :\. but then i think about it and it doesnt really matter to me because i know at least two people that are TRUE friends and thats pretty comforting to know.


you know im starting to feel empty again.
its this weird hollow feeling i had in freshman year..
hmm. god id promise myself id never feel this way again.

its okay though.. probably auntie flos jst coming for a visit.